I’m Tired, But I’m Trying
Currently, I am mentally drained and emotionally lost. It's that type of tiredness you don't shake off with rest or sleep alone. It's a weighty feeling, as if one has a burden inside no one else can perceive but have to deal with daily. I've given so many chances to people who did not deserve them. I kept hoping there was something good about everyone, hoping they would see my effort, my concern. But truthfully, sometimes there just isn't any goodness left to be found. And that hurts a lot. Letting go is supposed to make things easier. But it still hurts, maybe even more than holding on. Holding on means you’re stuck in the same pain, but letting go means you have to face that pain without anything familiar to hold on to. I was the one to make the first call. When I was feeling down or broken, I called my friends. I thought that if I spoke enough words, someone would hear me and care. But calling ten and hearing nothing or no return call made me feel lonelier. It...